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20 February 2009 @ 11:58 am
Missing  
I hate to loose something what I usually tend to take for granted. But soon it will happen. My girlfriend needs to leave for China again. And even though we still have a week together, I already miss her dearly. I loved the time we've been together. We were like a real married couple. I know in September that will be happening for real. I used to be afraid, but I am not anymore, or at least not at the moment. She is perfect or rather as perfect as someone can be for me and in my eyes. She has been great the past three months. But I didn't miss her. I loved her and love her, but I took all for granted. I knew she would be there for me when I came home. But after next week, she won't be there for me. At least not at home, but instead she will be in a country many thousands of kilometers away and this makes the missing real. Instead of the 'married couple' we'll be the 'Living Apart Together couple' and I'm not sure if I like that. Not anymore anyways. I want to be with her.
So I hope September will come very soon. I will be going to China again and see her and her family again. I will be able to kiss her again and also marry her. So this is the thought I will use to keep me floating for the next couple of months.
I love you, baby! I'll be missing you. I will count the days.